Is it ever going to be over?
This feeling of unappreciation…
I swear I try to make sense of it all…
And I try to go back to when it was beautiful.
When every word you spoke to me was pure melodies to my ear
And the very thought of you made my heart weak
And when I saw your smile, it set me at ease
I thought love could be the cure to everything
But how can you love someone when you barely speak?
How is it we have all these pictures, but no memories?
What happened to what we USED TO BE?
What happened to the person that promised me everything?
But it’s my fault…for falling for the love quotes
And I’ve said it before; I hate liars and promise makers
So deceitful, whispering false hope disguised by sweet words.
And I believed it all, because I believed in you
Because you were my hero
Were… And I want to believe that you still are
And God knows I’ve tried
And I never failed to stick by your side
Because you’re the only thing that is occupying my heart
And at the same time, you’re tearing it apart
This isn’t you, not the same person I thought I knew
And sometimes I feel like I can’t even speak to you
Because nothing I say will ever get through
But this is what it’s going to come down to
I gotta start living for myself, and not for you
Because how can you love me if I don’t love myself too?
And how can it be about us when it’s always about you?
—Reem Salih Alwashah